50 years and lots to ponder
This week my husband turned 50. Although this is a time for him to reflect on his life and progress so far, I also found myself doing the same. I wondered if this path I am currently walking in the right path, the best path, for us moving forward. I often find myself with so much to do during my days that I rarely get time to notice the roses much less have time to stop and smell them.
I realized this week that I want to spend less time with work and exhausting energy on other people’s issues and more time enjoying experiences with my little family. I want more memories of enjoying new places, new people, and new adventures. Time on this earth is so short and I have spent the last 10 years running around, working and learning to get myself to a point where we can do this.
So, in preparation to start 2020 in the best way I have deactivated Facebook, I will not be doing therapy for a private practice after the end of the year, and I am going to gently and in all respect say no to people moving forward. Not because I don’t want to help but because in my reflection I noticed that I expend a great amount of energy doing for other people that only reach out when they need something from me. And up to this point, I have allowed that because I never want people to feel the way they have made me feel over and over again. And this isn’t anyone’s fault but my own. I lack the boundaries and self-respect to stand up and say no. I coach clients with this every day but never take my own advice, until now.
I look forward to more peace, more memories, more genuine connections with new people from all walks of life. I look forward to all of this with my husband by my side, supporting each other and celebrating each year together.
Bring on 2020!